Plan "B"

I remember being a kid of 13 or so and wondering in my loudest inner voice that I could muster what it was all about if it wasn't about me. I'd laugh now, but I can't help thinking of all the normal living I missed out on being wierd. Anyway, I've been able to straighten a lot of things out, and even though I didn't feel any better at the time, I feel better now for the big night of confessions I had last week. Has a big weight been lifted from my shoulders? No, but at least it doesn't have to eat me alive anymore.

In addition to all the fun I have at WP, it's always been a sort of cemetery for me. A place I go to visit ghosts from my past. There are places I remember from when I was in my first teen year - walking down the road in the dark from Grandmas cabin to where the pool is now. My initials carved on the telephone pole on the way to the "stick people", and people. People and rollerskates. It's esoteric at this point, but then what else is new here, eh?

Anyway, after years of trying to work out the details of my life, I think I've decided to just get over it and move on. I wish someone had slapped me sooner. And hope? Hope is a friend of a friend. The song is so true ya' know. The dazzle of hope had me mesmerized for a while, but I know better now.

Sorry, I didn't mean for this to be a sad-n-sappy entry. It just sort of sounds like that though, eh? It's not really though. In a sense, it's closure. I wonder what's going on outside?

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Artist : Dashboard Confessional
Title : Vindicated
Album : N/A
Genre : Modern Rock

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

{Chorus}
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye

And rendered me
So isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that

{Chorus}

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (3x)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (4x)

{Chorus}

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...