Thursday, December 29, 2005
Let it go
At the end of each year, I like to look back with two mirrors. One that goes through the last 365 1/4 days and another that goes back 5 years. I like to reflect on what I've been doing (1 year) and where I am as compared to where I've been (5 year). I've noticed a few things.
I realize that I don't let things go. I let them fester. I may say that I forgive you, and I'd never seek any retribution, but I still keep a little hurt inside my heart. Perhaps it's normal, but normal or not - I don't want to do it. I want to be the sort of person that can get over stuff. To anyone I may owe "one free forgive", let me say that I do forgive you. As much as I'm able - I do.
I also realized that I've been backsliding this past year. I haven't been taking the important things very seriously. Sure, I've been going to church and found a singles group, but in my spare time, I've spent the year drinking beer and watching tv, and not on the more important tasks at hand.
Of lesser importance, I've grown some much needed muscle mass and lost some fat (yep, fat!). I was 185 lbs and I've gotten close to 190 while working out 3-4 times a week and sticking to my new 3300 calorie diet. I've since lost most of my weight gain, but I think I've lost fat and not muscle. So, that's goodness - right?
Lastly, I can't believe how much I've grown technically. I've learned so much about my job while on this new project that I'm hoping for a really nice bonus in May. I could do without the long hours though :-|
I think you're completely up to date now. Have a great New Years and a wonderful Festivus.
I realize that I don't let things go. I let them fester. I may say that I forgive you, and I'd never seek any retribution, but I still keep a little hurt inside my heart. Perhaps it's normal, but normal or not - I don't want to do it. I want to be the sort of person that can get over stuff. To anyone I may owe "one free forgive", let me say that I do forgive you. As much as I'm able - I do.
I also realized that I've been backsliding this past year. I haven't been taking the important things very seriously. Sure, I've been going to church and found a singles group, but in my spare time, I've spent the year drinking beer and watching tv, and not on the more important tasks at hand.
Of lesser importance, I've grown some much needed muscle mass and lost some fat (yep, fat!). I was 185 lbs and I've gotten close to 190 while working out 3-4 times a week and sticking to my new 3300 calorie diet. I've since lost most of my weight gain, but I think I've lost fat and not muscle. So, that's goodness - right?
Lastly, I can't believe how much I've grown technically. I've learned so much about my job while on this new project that I'm hoping for a really nice bonus in May. I could do without the long hours though :-|
I think you're completely up to date now. Have a great New Years and a wonderful Festivus.
