Plan "B"

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(although I don't really need to put disclaimers in my own dang blog)
These are MY feelings. Feel free to write your own. You may feel healthier afterwards. Or convicted. My blog is more about me than of anyone else. The other players are parenthetical.
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Why not just keep my big mouth shut and pocket veto the whole thing if I'm that uncomfortable with it? Why rock the boat? Why stir the ocean?

Simple, it's more than mere seasickness. The boat is adrift and sinking. The passengers - unaware. The helm goes unmanned, but everyone has a good feeling about where we're going. The destiny of the USS Good Intention is clear unless someone does something. "Why should the ship run aground before it reaches its destination?", they say. "It's such a pretty ship. We have the best of intentions. We're all nice people. Surely, we'll make it to our port".

Nobody seems interested in taking a reading of our course, but who really needs a compass anyway? Some have their own feelings about what the compass says. Why should we be lost? "I know what the compass reads, I read it when I was younger." We're still heading in pretty much the same direction today as we were yesterday. To be certain, this isn't the decisive steer - this isn't some trite camel and straw analogy. But I'm growing concerned.

After much apathy to the outside, I have removed myself from the pedantic study of the ship's mast and the charts. It's time to tell the others of our situation. But what if they don't agree with my assessment of the situation? They may argue, "We will not surely die." So said the serpent. Perhaps a sea serpent in this story.

"I know the way", I'd say.

But what do I know of the way. I've torn whole pages out of the Atlas and steered away from the lightest of storms on my watch - steered far away from the home port. I've taken my own ship and run it aground more times than I can admit. And still do. So don't look to me for advise on how to steer. Look to the compass. Read your charts with both eyes, and don't look for people who you know will agree with you to ask if you're on the right course. "Yes people" say "yes".

As for me and my ship, I've found myself pining for the destination I've set out for 15 years ago. I've read about it, and I believe it is a real destination. Some can't make even that leap, and so my thoughts and words are as divisive as the joining pages of a book to them. They are perfect opposites of each other. In the classical definition of insanity, I did (wrote) something and expected completely antithetical results. I suppose I can't turn back now - that ship has sailed.